In which you eventually will die. It’s called.. life.
Haha, ok. I just had a great weekend with friends celebrating Halloween (outfit check!). Really happy to see them again after a month away!
& today after work I met up with two amazing friends talking this game called life over, while munching our pasta’s away.
Not only do I always love the food, I mean good company, but I also appreciate the realness good friends have in their conversations. You laugh and discuss the most silly things, but you learn as well, listening to each others experiences and advice. Like my ‘I can’t make a choice in what I want’ problem. For the first time in a long while since I’m struggling with this I’ve finally picked up something I didn’t already know. Well, somewhere I did know, but couldn’t the right words to it. Instead of everybody asking what do you really want? That’s what you should do! I heard it phrased like this: what do you really need and is realistic (to eventually do what you want). It’s not what my end goal is what I have to think about now, it’s what I need most and figure out what my next step is in that. Sometimes I think too hard and conversations like these can clear so much up. You already know what you need to know, but it can take a while to get the right angle, that Aha erlebnis. I think I may have found it! Thanks for that!
That typical what you need isn’t always what you want to hear thing once again is part of this. Hearing I’ve become more ‘beautiful’ in a way over the last couple of months in comparison to a tough period before that where a lot of negativity could be felt and seen, caught me a little. It hurts to know things have been really bad, but feels so great knowing I’ve done all I could to become that ‘beautiful’.
Challenging this game will stay until it’s over.